anafriendk

more pics

2004-04-13T01:43:06Z

ana beatriz barros
http://www.herfamedgoodlooks.com/archive.html/Ana%20Beatriz%20Barros/editorials/pages/GQUK0803phToddBarry_DixieChicks_06.htm

molly sims
http://mosims.home.att.net/swimsuit/original/msswim30.jpg
http://mosims.home.att.net/swimsuit/original/msswim18.jpg
http://mosims.home.att.net/swimsuit/original/msswim50.jpg
http://mosims.home.att.net/swimsuit/original/msswim20.jpg
http://mosims.home.att.net/lingerie/original/mslingerie15.jpg
http://mosims.home.att.net/lingerie/original/mslingerie02.jpg

yamila diaz-rahi
http://supermodelforever.com/archive.jsp?galleryName=Yamila%20Diaz&gallery=yd1&image=gallery/yd/yd003
http://supermodelforever.com/archive.jsp?galleryName=Yamila%20Diaz&gallery=yd2&week=120&model=yd

petra nemcova
http://pnemcova.home.att.net/swimsuit/original/sw014.jpg
http://pnemcova.home.att.net/swimsuit/original/sw057.jpg

mischa barton pics

2004-04-12T03:29:56Z

i love the sharp angles of her face. i am jealous.
http://www.taod.com/modules.php?name=gal&file=photo&a=34&p=123751

just one of those "wow, she looks so girl-next-door-like, yet gorgeous" pics
http://www.taod.com/modules.php?name=gal&file=photo&a=34&p=123760

collar bone alert
http://www.taod.com/modules.php?name=gal&file=photo&a=34&p=102217

looks like she might be sucking in, but gotta love those legs
http://www.taod.com/modules.php?name=gal&file=photo&a=34&p=6279

i just like this pic for some reason
http://www.taod.com/modules.php?name=gal&file=photo&a=34&p=6281

face, collarbones, whats not to love
http://www.taod.com/modules.php?name=gal&file=photo&a=34&p=102198

just another good pic
http://www.taod.com/modules.php?name=gal&file=photo&a=34&p=102199

thinsperation

2004-04-12T03:29:26Z

idk if anyone reads my journal, but i felt that i needed a little thinsperation. i always feel so ready after looking at those pics. so if you would like to look at them too, feel free to comment.

anafriendk @ 2004-04-06T16:38:00

2004-04-06T20:39:51Z

i need help from someone who is mia and knows what im going through. when i purge sometimes after awhile its like i purge up air, almost like a burp, but worse. do u know what that means or what it is? does it mean my stomach is empty or is there something else? i dont know and i really need someone's help.

stackers 2

2004-03-09T05:56:42Z

i dont understand. i restrict and workout for hours everyday, burning usually at least twice the number of calories i have consumed all day and i still am having trouble losing weight. so ive decided to finally try the oh-so-popular Stackers 2 route. i started yesterday and i even ate more than usual (my parents took me out to dinner and i couldnt avoid it) and i lost 1 1/2 lbs. when i would have usually gained weight! so, so far so good! although today i felt some of the bad effects of the pills and got really dizzy and sick to my stomach and overall felt not so good. but ill deal with it if im gonna lose weight this easily.

reading time

2004-01-31T19:02:38Z

so i went to my college library and to my dissapointment i could not find the book "wasted." some other ana friend must have it. but in the meantime i picked up another one that i will start reading called "good enough" by cynthia nappa bitter.

wednesday night

2004-01-29T04:48:16Z

ive been pretty good up until today so im back to another mini fast to whip myself back into shape and get my priorities straight. its so weird, mia is my best friend at home, but shes not around as much when im at school. ana takes over at school. does anyone else deal with this? well im going for just 38 hours. then i should be ok again.

anafriendk @ 2004-01-26T15:53:00

2004-01-26T21:03:35Z

i just ended my 39 hour fast. i couldnt go longer because of track. i had a crazy dream last night that i broke my fast by eating something like a piece of bread and i cried and cried in my dream and woke up in a frantic state. how bad it that? its so hard when im at school because when i fast, i can't focus on school work and people notice when im not eating. but on the other hand, its kinda nice at school because i have another incentive not to eat. in order to get to the food i have to walk to the dining hall and thats on the other side of campus and it is sooooo cold here and i am normally cold, so it is painful to get food. time to work on some more homework!

anafriendk @ 2004-01-17T00:20:00

2004-01-17T05:21:23Z

i have fallen into the depths of mia without even realizing it. im so out of control. the binge/purge cycle continues...

thursday

2004-01-15T06:37:18Z

well i did a mini fast- just 24 hours to get my head back on straight. im doing better. i almost messed up again after my fast, but i purged, so its ok. mia has only recently become my friend (in the last couple of months). has anyone else noticed that it becomes easier to purge each time? i think its disgusting, but i had to do it. it made me feel better afterwards so its ok. im starting to get back on track...

in the year 2004

2004-01-12T06:58:58Z

i have disappeared for awhile because i was so embarrassed. i was doing really well and then lost complete control and gained everything back. i feel hideous and disgusting. now im back again and i realize i need your help. i need the support of my ana friends because without you guys im all alone. so thank you for everything so far. keep up your own good work. please help me in any way you can.

update again

2004-01-01T04:09:09Z

i finished my first 48 hour fast. nothing but water and 1 grapefruit to keep me going and i still exercised like crazy. i dont no how some of you can go for longer, but i felt like shit this morning during the last 4 hours of my fast. i felt faint, sweaty hot, then freezing cold, and felt like i was going to throw up. then i tried to swallow down some broth but that didnt stay in my stomach very long (involuntarily). is this normal or am i just being a big baby?

oh well, at least i lost 3 ugly lbs.

update

2003-12-31T01:04:53Z

ok, im 33 hours into my fast, going for the home stretch. i think i did pretty well. i only drank water and allowed myself 1 grapefruit so i wouldnt pass out while i ran for 1 hour and did conditioning. almost 48 hours! then soup.

survey

2003-12-31T01:02:24Z

wow, i didnt expect this. my score was 203. i dont think i have that big of a problem.

http://www.aplaceofhope.com/evaluations.html

a first!

2003-12-29T17:14:47Z

ok! here i go! this is my first official fast. im going for two days. i dont know what got into me this morning, but i ate- way too much, so i purged. im feeling better now. my fast started at 11am monday morning. lets see how i do. i need some tips because i exercise a lot and i know im going to end of feeling faint. how can i avoid/hide this?

sunday

2003-12-28T23:51:20Z

i just thought i would give a little update.

exercise today:
i woke up and went to the gym and ran for 35 min. and then did some toning with weights for 1/2 hour. then i went back later and did a slow run for 1 hour and did a little more toning.
burned 1100+ calories

food:
i ate two egg whites and a small weight watchers meal and lots of water.
consumed 330 calories

as of this morning:
ht: 5'8"
cw: 126.6 (ugh!)

still going!

monday

2003-12-23T04:31:47Z

tonight was not a good night. ive been really, really careful in watching what i eat especially now that im home again and with my parents watchful eye over me and tonight i almost blew it. i had just come home from the gym and was going to just go to bed soon when all of a sudden i started to black out, everything got fuzzy and loud and my legs almost gave out. last time i felt like that was when i was young, at the doctor's office during a blood test. the doctor had told me i almost fainted. so tonight, i almost fainted- twice. once in front of my dad (that would have been so bad) and the second time coming out of the shower. ive never really dealt with this problem before so i dont know how to handle it.

my situation

2003-12-14T13:56:11Z

Over this past summer I was so good. I lost weight, I slimmed down, and I looked awesome and felt awesome. But then I left for college and it all went downhill. Now I'm not talking abouot gaining the freshman fifteen by eating and drinking a lot because I kept my good eating habits and I don't drink. But somehow I was gaining weight and I thought it might be from the weight lifting the trainers were having us track people do. But the numbers kept rising on the scale. Now ever since coming to school I have been so stressed out and depressed because I hate it here. I don't like my school and it literally makes me sick (from stress). I think it's the stress that is making me gain weight because I'm hardly eating anything. I feel like if I eat a "normal" meal I gain weight! This only causes more stress because I don't know what's going on. I'm getting plenty of aerobic exercise because of track, but it doesn't seem to help. Someone help me!

not good

2003-12-13T18:09:39Z

Yesterday was horrible. I was freaking out about one of my finals the next morning and when someone mentioned eating chinese, I cracked! My study group all ordered chinese and I succumbed to the pressure. I'm horrible! I felt so disgusting! I still feel disgusting because I find it hard to purge. Today I tried to be much better but I feel like crap. I'm going to the gym soon to work my fat ass off. I'll be there for hours as usual. Today I only ate 1 bagel for breakfast and 1 small bowl of rice crispies for lunch and that's going to be it for me today. I'm trying what a friend told me to do, to eat small meals throughout the day to keep my metabolism up, until I can get myself under control and fast again. Finals are killing me. I need some thinsperation.

anafriendk @ 2003-12-11T15:38:00

2003-12-11T20:39:42Z

Hey guys! Just to fill you in on a little about myself. I am a college student and I'm on the track team. The hard thing with working out is that I'm injured right now, so I'm very limited in what I can do and it's driving me insane. Has anyone else had to deal with this? I've been sticking to one small meal a day this week. When I say a small meal, I mean like 1 bagel, or 1 sandwich just so my track coaches don't get suspicious. Last week I was on a liquid fast and destroyed it on the weekend because I love food. Ugh! So disgusting! What are some good foods I can stick to, like the negative calorie ones like some fruits and veggies? Good luck with everyone else on their fasts.

anafriendk @ 2003-12-11T01:00:00

2003-12-11T06:01:42Z

Stats:
HT: 5'8"
LW:120
HW:134
CW:132
STG:125 by christmas
LTG:115-118 (if i can get any lower, that would be great)

What does everyone do for exercise, how often, and how long?
And when you end a fast, do you have to be careful because I heard it's really easy to gain weight right after fasting.
Does anyone have any motivational tips to get me started? My weight has been fluctuating like crazy the past few weeks, but I just get so frustrated.