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anafriendk's Journal  ana beatriz barros http://www.herfamedgoodlooks.com/archiv molly sims http://mosims.home.att.net/swimsuit/ori http://mosims.home.att.net/swimsuit/ori http://mosims.home.att.net/swimsuit/ori http://mosims.home.att.net/swimsuit/ori http://mosims.home.att.net/lingerie/ori http://mosims.home.att.net/lingerie/ori yamila diaz-rahi http://supermodelforever.com/archive.js http://supermodelforever.com/archive.js petra nemcova http://pnemcova.home.att.net/swimsuit/o http://pnemcova.home.att.net/swimsuit/o i love the sharp angles of her face. i am jealous. http://www.taod.com/modules.php?name=ga just one of those "wow, she looks so girl-next-door-like, yet gorgeous" pics http://www.taod.com/modules.php?name=ga collar bone alert http://www.taod.com/modules.php?name=ga looks like she might be sucking in, but gotta love those legs http://www.taod.com/modules.php?name=ga i just like this pic for some reason http://www.taod.com/modules.php?name=ga face, collarbones, whats not to love http://www.taod.com/modules.php?name=ga just another good pic http://www.taod.com/modules.php?name=ga idk if anyone reads my journal, but i felt that i needed a little thinsperation. i always feel so ready after looking at those pics. so if you would like to look at them too, feel free to comment. i need help from someone who is mia and knows what im going through. when i purge sometimes after awhile its like i purge up air, almost like a burp, but worse. do u know what that means or what it is? does it mean my stomach is empty or is there something else? i dont know and i really need someone's help. i dont understand. i restrict and workout for hours everyday, burning usually at least twice the number of calories i have consumed all day and i still am having trouble losing weight. so ive decided to finally try the oh-so-popular Stackers 2 route. i started yesterday and i even ate more than usual (my parents took me out to dinner and i couldnt avoid it) and i lost 1 1/2 lbs. when i would have usually gained weight! so, so far so good! although today i felt some of the bad effects of the pills and got really dizzy and sick to my stomach and overall felt not so good. but ill deal with it if im gonna lose weight this easily. so i went to my college library and to my dissapointment i could not find the book "wasted." some other ana friend must have it. but in the meantime i picked up another one that i will start reading called "good enough" by cynthia nappa bitter. ive been pretty good up until today so im back to another mini fast to whip myself back into shape and get my priorities straight. its so weird, mia is my best friend at home, but shes not around as much when im at school. ana takes over at school. does anyone else deal with this? well im going for just 38 hours. then i should be ok again. i just ended my 39 hour fast. i couldnt go longer because of track. i had a crazy dream last night that i broke my fast by eating something like a piece of bread and i cried and cried in my dream and woke up in a frantic state. how bad it that? its so hard when im at school because when i fast, i can't focus on school work and people notice when im not eating. but on the other hand, its kinda nice at school because i have another incentive not to eat. in order to get to the food i have to walk to the dining hall and thats on the other side of campus and it is sooooo cold here and i am normally cold, so it is painful to get food. time to work on some more homework! Current mood:  lonely.
i have fallen into the depths of mia without even realizing it. im so out of control. the binge/purge cycle continues... well i did a mini fast- just 24 hours to get my head back on straight. im doing better. i almost messed up again after my fast, but i purged, so its ok. mia has only recently become my friend (in the last couple of months). has anyone else noticed that it becomes easier to purge each time? i think its disgusting, but i had to do it. it made me feel better afterwards so its ok. im starting to get back on track... |
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